Written By: Michael Sandoval

The Doubt

“Friend or Faux” (Foe)

There are so many beliefs, philosophies and practices that deliver perspectives on the differences between Good and Evil. Within our life time we find ourselves generally realizing our personal thoughts towards the subject. I have always found the sensitive topic to be a very interesting one. What makes something good? Would we be able to recognize evil without the good things in our lives? Would it be easy to acknowledge best practices if we never experienced dishonorable or corrupt occurrences?  The English dictionary has words that associate biblical meanings to both Good and Evil but this blog is written without any theological bias or beliefs. It is merely a perspective of circumstances throughout my life that have always presented me with the same question. “ Am I doing the right thing”????

Where does doubt come from? Maybe it is the little voice inside of our head that reminds us of our human imperfections….

How can we as people determine if our actions can be classified as moral or just? Is it through religion, upbringing, geographical location, society or political authority? It begins to seem as though every direction that we manipulate the question, we always end up with an undetermined result of uncertainty.

I have always had one ultimate goal. To be happy….. I have realized that without a doubt it has been the most general but difficult purpose that I have ever tried to accomplish.  In the 35 years of my existence I have had a roller coaster ride of ideas that suggest the true meaning of the word happiness. Although my life has been full of joy, I have come to realize that “The Pursuit of Happiness” will be a life long journey.

What would our lives be like without doubt? Would the feeling be similar to that of a Super Hero?

I thought about it long and hard and came to this conclusion:

I have been living my entire life in a conservative manner and in some ways doubt has played a tremendous role. Within the last few years I have realized that without doubt or nervousness, I may have been prevented from accomplishing the things that I have within my life or career.

It was the moments of feeling vulnerable that allowed me to achieve a multitude of productivity. It was my fear that provoked a battle against that little voice that exists inside of us all. It made me feel as if I had to beat it; overcome the fear and the doubt, then show this invisible “Being” that I would not allow it take control. The voice would occasionally return with its abrasive charge and remind me of my failures, shortfalls and insecurities as if it knew exactly how to attack and precisely identify the most detrimental emotions.

I have thought about this indistinguishable altercation as if it were an actual battle. To win I would have to prepare myself emotionally, physically and practically. I would have to organize many methods and tactics to subdue the enemy and claim victory.  My weapons would have to stay sharp at all times and I would need to be prepared to engage in controversy in the endless battle against……..

Myself!

I share these true feeling with you today because I know how we are all feeling or have felt at some stage of our lives. I understand that there are a lot human emotions and imperfections that prevent us from achieving or doing the things that actually make us Happy!!

Today, I encourage you to fight! To stand up against anything that has the courage to tell you that you can accomplish your dreams even through these uncertain times!

I would also like to take this time to thank you “doubt”… For always pushing me to my limits and continuing your relentless invasion… Without you I don’t think I would have achieved my goals.

Even though I am extremely thankful that you are always by my side and ready to challenge my every move.....

I would respectfully like to let you know!......!

YOU WILL NEVER WIN!